It's My Life

Photo Post No. 4 - Linda's 21st Birthday Party

2008-08-18T23:35:00.002+08:00

Linda's 21st Birthday Party was quite a success. It's been such a long time since 4d '03 had really seen everybody. The girls have all transformed to pretty ladies! Oh wells the ppl missing here are huiwen and ying! grr. RAgang not complete at all. Anyway had really loads of fun with the boys (notice i call them boys not guys). Seriously they totally have not grown up yet. Still the same back then at 2003. Laughing and joking around with them makes me feel like I'm sec4 again. They sure are bunches of bananas.

Happy Birthday Linda!

Photo Post No. 3 - UOC2008 Titans

2008-08-18T23:29:00.003+08:00

Yea! And it was UOC 2008! This year my OG is called Titans. I think it's got something to do with Teen Titans or something. This photo is great cos it has 4 generations in it! Tesmin - Tuscan - Torrio - Titans. Didn't really get to join them much in games as I was kinda busy with other stuff. Oh wells, it was really fun being the photographer anyway. Plus, I really missed T group peeps especially my twin CHING! (CHING I LOVE YOUR SHIT CHEER MAN!!) =)

We ROCK DAO BAO!

Photo Post No. 2 - Birthday with Zach

2008-08-18T00:53:00.004+08:00

I'm a little lazy. So only one photo per post. Haha. The rest can always go stalk me at facebook. =P Yay had my birthday party on the 7th and my whole family is at Perth on my actual birthday. Poor me. But luckily Zach was nice enough to celebrate for me! Haha. Yes. You will always be my sbf ok. =) It was a great birthday though kinda rocky and shaky at some parts of the ride. But definitely exciting! Haha. Thanks SBF!

Photo Post No. 1 - My Birthday Celebrations!

2008-08-11T11:32:00.008+08:00

My actual Birthday falls on a Wednesday and since most of my friends are super hardworking and so they're working, holding the party on a Saturday would be the most sane option. So it was the 7th and held at the resort at East Coast Park.

Yay. This banner is the masterpiece of Zeh, Becky, Mame, Sean and Me! =) Thanks lots k. I love the colours!!

My Birthday Cake. This costs like 100bucks.

And then its Photo-taking session with the 100dollar cake. Tuscan Rocks!

1504 peeps were here too! Thanks for coming guys it's been quite awhile since I last saw ballie and tweety.

Yay my DHSCO buddies! Reunion except for Kayan whose all the way in HongKong. Kayan I miss you!

The Pipa Meis! Pipa Rocks!

This group shot is kinda weird. Haha. But thanks Huiting for coming your bf's really sweet to help out with the bbq. =)

Yay my course mates. Alvin and Xiaojun are my chauffeurs around NTU. =X

Pageant peeps. The 7 princesses unite again. 6 Pretty princesses and not forgetting the big one at the back.

My family!

Yay! 5 of us. Muacks!

3 sistaz rocks.

The CO peeps again. Wow it's really been a very long time since I saw giap bentoh and shuying man.

My cousin Haris! He's really cute and cheeky!

There are lotsa other random photos. But I'm super lazy as usual. There are already lotsa photos up here anyway. =X Had a great time though at first I was really busy with all the preparations. But I had lotsa help from friends and family too.

Here's special thanks to:

Sean and Joseph. The 2 very tall people. Sean for helping out with bbq and Joseph for being the camera man.

Cheryl for helping out at bbq and other random errands. Thanks lots cheryl! Ur my BFF!

My dearest little sister Becky! For lotsa stuff oh and entertaining my friends too. Haha.

Zeh! Ahh! Really happy you flew all the way from Perth for my Birthday man. So touched. Miss you already. Sob.

Pape and Mame for making this celebration possible. I know the party has burnt a big hole in your wallets. Hee. Carol loves you all!

Oh and also Jingze and Weilin for the nice food. You guys really were a great help. Thanks lots. =)

Haha. This post is taking so long I'm starting to have tummy ache. -__-Zzz.. I'm beginning to think twice on posting up other photos. Meanwhile you can try staying tuned to Photo Post No. 2.

A short one.

2008-08-10T10:57:00.002+08:00

Yes at last a post! Hoho. A little lazy to really go and update. Cos there's really lotsa stuff to talk about man. There's my birthday celebrations and then my PA, UOC 08 and Hall4 FOC 08, plus Huiwen's Birthday and National Day Fireworks not forgetting Linda's party. whoo. Lotsa photos to update man. Next post k. =X

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Oh yea. Yet another rainbow skin. The Domokun looks kinda cute. Haha.

Great weekend!

2008-06-02T23:23:00.002+08:00

Yay! I have another happy post. Last week was quite fun! Though I wanna shop but I've got no freaking time!! I spend my time eating n drinking and dancing. Haha. Quite dumb, but still very fun! Had lotsa happy food during the week man. Gosh I really need to exercise now. Feel soo guilty.

Firstly, thursday I went to eat at this really cool bar restaurant at Dempsey Hill. It's called Oosh! There was this man-made waterfall or something and we managed to get a seat just right beside it. It was kinda dark tho. I was like thinking who can eat at such a dark place!! They should get those LuckyStar Lanterns that I have though. Its romantic and lights up the place just perfectly. Yea, where was I? Oh, we had this mushroom salad and ohmigosh! Those mushrooms were so juicy and huge!! I was trying my best not to squirt mushroom juice from my mouth while chewing at them man. Then wy had Oosh! pasta and mine was some black pepper beef thingy. The waiter disappointed me cos I was waiting for him to go like, 'Good evening sir, here's your Oosh! Pasta. Pls enjoy your Oosh! Pasta.' You know? With the extra oomph for the word Oosh! Okay, fine! I know I'm friggin retarded. Although we ate quite a lot already, we headed to Ben&Jerry's! Ice cream with brownie and waffles. Heavenly. Gg to that place sure bring back memories though. Like one of the last few happier days with zk. Zzz.. Should stop thinking about that. -_- Spoils my mood.

Yea, and then we went to raimah to meet up with Khaliq. Talk cock till quite late. And then went home already. Brings back lots of memories too. Kembangan has a new bball court! Oh man, ying! Come back you little dumbo woman! Let's hang out at kemb again man!

Friday was out with Zach, went to eat at Mr Bean Cafe, the same place again!! But not bad. I love the carbonara sauce man! Yummy! Stupid idiot, Zach waste food again can! He is an earth killer. Zach, please imagine, how many poor things aren't getting enough food, some no real food at all! And you wasted a nice yummy slice of pizza! GASP!! How could you!
Anyway, we went to watch Narnia after that. I think Prince Caspian has a sexy accent. But seriously, that CHIN! He sure looks alright with it right now, but give that chin another 25 years and bam! It would look like the one on John Travolta. Eww! The story was better than the first Narnia movie but I think it would be much better if they can put more dreamy and fairytale essence into it. Oh but I love the part where that River King Monster dude came and perform karate on that bridge. With the water swishing and swashing high up as the background. So AWESOME! It's not as nice as LOTR but still it's still a movie to catch.

Then saturday it was Island Creamery with pageant peeps! Yummy, I love almost all the flavours there man! Had a hard time deciding what to order. Very berry, burnt caramel, teh tarik! Hmm hmm! Gonna go back there some time soon.

After that went MOS with wy and some of his friend. Kinda impromptu, waiting for Khaliq to say let's go man. And you know what, the very last time I went MOS was the very first time I talked to zk. That's like more than a year ago. So many non-chinese over there. Was quite fun, though seriously zouk is much better. Come on wy n k, come get hooked on mambo man! Anyway the dancefloor closed at 5am man! Danced till legs went sore can. Went raimah again, reached home and like slept for 3 hours only. zzz.

When I reached home, I had another surprise!! My beloved ZEH is back for my birthday! Aww man! I'm just so touched! =) N then, they decided to go eat early dimsum lunch. Zzz. And then, I had to rush off to meet cheryl at east coast park. Went to support wy at his last gig before NS. I'm so sorry I totally zonked out about the present-the-flowers-to-wy thingy. Hope his bandmates are not like who's that spaced-out gal who we don't even know man! -_- Oh the worst part was, I brought my camera and happily took it out to snap snap photos. But what happened? I forgot to charge the damned batteries and only took like 2 shots. Guess what, I had to waste it on khaliq. LOL.

After the gig, we went to eat pizza hut at marina square. Nicholas joined becky, cheryl and me. And we chilled and rotted till I was too friggin tired. -__- I was totally moody about the arrival of monday man. It's end of the weekends and start of work already? AWWW MAN!

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I think I need more sleep. Dozed off for more than 10 times at work today. Zzz..
Shall post some photos next post!

Confused and down.

2008-05-28T23:30:00.002+08:00

I suddenly feel very confused. Confused by everything! Grr. Once again, Carol has her brain chunked into the juice blender. =S

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The cry of the city like a siren's song
Wailing over the rooftops the whole night long
Saw a shooting star like a diamond in the sky
Must be someone's soul passing by

These are the streets W
here we used to run where your Papa's from
These are the days
Where you become what you become
These are the streets
Where the story's told
The truth unfolds
Darkness settles in (ohh)

Shine your light down on me
Lift me up so I can see (mm)
Shine your light when you're gone
Give me the strength
To carry on, carry on

Don't wanna be a hero
Just an everyday man
Trying to do the job the very best he can
(the very best he can)
But now it's like living on borrowed time
Out on the rim, over the line
Always tempting fate like a game of chance
Never wanna stick around to the very last dance
(to the very last dance)
Sometimes I stumble and take a hard fall
Lose hold your grip off the wall

Shine your light down on me
Lift me up so I can see (mm)
Shine your light when you're gone
Give me the strength to carry on
Carry on

I thought I saw him walking by the side of the road
Maybe trying to find his way home

He's here but not here
He's gone but not gone
Just hope he knows if I get lost (ohhhh)

Shine your light down on me
Lift me up so I can see (mm)
Shine your light when you're gone
Give me the strength to carry on
Carry on

-Robbie Robertson. Shine Your Light. of Ladder49
and he says this is a great song

Beach Outing on Holiday! 19th May

2008-05-26T21:21:00.007+08:00

Yay! At last I've gotten the photos from jingze. Shall post some up here to brighten up my blog a little. Think my blog needs more photos. Haha. Here goes~

The sun is starting to set and out comes the moon! Yep there it is!

Haha. Someone's missing!

Squish!

Nice photo taken by me!

Me and cheryl!

Yea! Its us! The twins!

We sure look like small kids in this shot.

Dunno who's idea..

Group shot at last!

The lucky guy gets kisses.

Haha. A fun and sweaty day. We walked and walked. Found a place to play frisbee. Traded our frisbee for a soccer ball and we played rugby n monkey with it. Haha. Then it was cycling around and off we go to eat dinner at subways.

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Sadly though, cheryl lost her handphone. It's okay cheryl, you get to have a new phone soon! =)

what are ya looking at?

2008-05-20T21:48:00.003+08:00

a happy day. =)

16th May.

This is what I look like today
And I'm trying not to pull out my hair
I'm trying not to show it 'cause I'm far too shy to grow it back there
That's probably why I like wearing hats
There's no denying I'm deferring the facts
Avoiding confrontation
Lacks tact in a situation
Behind every line is a lesson yet to learn

But if you ask me
The feeling that I'm feeling is overwhelming
And oh, it goes to show
I've so much to know

I wrote this for my prettiest friend
Who while trying not to prove that I care
Trying not to make all my moves in one motion and scare her away
Well she can't see she's making me crazy now
I don't believe she knows she's amazing how
She has me holding my breath
So I'd never guess that I'm a none such unsuitable, suited for her

But if you ask me
The feeling that I'm feeling is complimentary
And oh, it goes to show
The moral of the story is boy loves girl
And so on the way that it unfolds is yet to be told

I know that I should be brave
Even pretty can be seen by the blind
I know that I cannot wait
Until the day we finally learn how to find each other
Redefining open minds

And if you ask me
The feeling that I'm feeling is overjoyed
And it's golden, it goes to show then
The ending of this song should be left alone
And so on 'cause the way it unfolds is yet to be told

-jason mraz. prettiest friend.

not again!?!?

2008-05-18T15:30:00.002+08:00

The canon in D theory is certainly driving me nuts. OMFG!! what's with today's men?

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Anyway, happy mood!!!!!!!!! =)

The After Exam Fever

2008-05-05T20:42:00.002+08:00

Ohmigosh! Isn't it like eons since the last time i really blogged about something?!? And even my tagboard is dead. Gee. Well this just shows how no life studying can be. I'm just so friggin glad that the exams are finally over! I'm so glad. I'm so glad! I'M SO GLAD!!!

Aw man. Been in such a fantastic mood recently. It all started out like a month ago. No particular reason for my happy mood though. Just so SO happy. And now, its holidays! Make me even more happy. People who are reading should feel some of my happiness too. Come talk to me and I'm sure you will be able to absorb some of it. =D Just hope that my fountain of happiness is running forever and that I'm not taking too much of happiness in advance. LOL. I really wonder what exactly I'm talking about over here.

Anyway, let me try to blog out the various reasons. What should I start with huh? Hmm.

Happy Dose Number 1.
Well, well I can only start with my family! Yes. I think they are such a great bunch of bananas man. Late night supper with Pape. Watching tv and gossip with Mame. Out shopping and slacking with Baby! (Psst. Hey you're too bz with N lately. Pls ask me out more often.) Oh and Zeh, when I text you and say that I love and miss you lots, I just mean that. Don't worry, I'm not like gonna run away or am under depression or well, anything of that sorts. Haha. Conclusion, I just love all my bananas. Hee.

Happy Dose Number 2.
Oh it's definitely cos of the Dayang Dive Trip. It's oh-so-fun man. I saw cuttlefishes, big turtles, stingrays, nemos, eel and a glimpse of the trigger fish. Not forgetting sea cucumber. Hmm. To think that sea cucumbers are pink in colour. Who would have thought of that? Haha. Had 5 dives in 2 days. That's totally not enough man. I still had extra time to do stuff other than Eat.Sleep.Dive. Can't wait to go dive again. And I'm so happy I have so many new diving kakis like luke, jingze and nick. Can organise own dive trips in the future man! Yippie~

Happy Dose Number 3.
Ahah! The next one is exercise! Been doing lots of those recently. Been jogging at least twice a week and my time is really improving lots. Been squashing with friends, bballing with friends, and blading with friends too! Hanging out with dunman high peeps just reminds me of the good old days. And I even made many new friends from all these playing around. Good thing! It makes me more psyched about exercising!

Happy Dose Number 4.
Now that the exams are over! I can go party all I want! I just miss the dancing and drinking so SO much man. Just went on Friday and I can't wait to Mambo this Wed. And oh gosh, wasn't Friday night a crazy one for me. I can swear to whatever god that I had never been this drunk before. Funny though, I don't remember really drinking a lot. Hmm. I don't even remember how many times I puked (my friends later told me it was twice). I only remembered that I was done puking, I headed straight to the dancefloor and its let's-shake-some-butt time! Can't wait to go back for some more.

Peeps! Do come join in this Wed! The more the merrier! Hee.
And to the peeps who went with me last friday. Pls zip zip about whatever I did or whatever I said that night. Thanks. =P

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Isn't it great that I finally get to enjoy life? I mean I finally get to enjoy my single life. It's really been such a freaking long time since I've lived like that. I don't really know how to put it actually. Argh. Hmm.. I get to do what I want and what I like and whenever I want to. No qualms about hurting whoever's feelings or whoever's gonna hurt mine. No more whining about my lousy or sick-in-the-mind boyfriends. No more intrusion of privacy or distrust. No more wishy-washy tales and no more mixed-up feelings about anything.

Haha. Yea yea, I know love's not all that bad. There are lotsa good stuff about relationships too. But I assure you, all those bad stuff do exist too k. Yup. And I'm really glad that zk and I ended. I mean even though I still feel this sick-knotted feeling inside me whenever I think about us, I'm just glad that it did end in the first place. I deserve someone better than him, someone that's perfect for me. Same goes for him as well. I'm sure such a person does exist and meanwhile, I will just enjoy my precious single life. Yay! So friends, do not worry for me k. Really, I'm over everything already.

I really do wonder if all these are things to be happy about. Haha. But they sure make Carol feel happy! Oh and there's actually other secret reasons that I wanna keep hush-hushed. So yep. If you wanna know. You've gotta ask me.

Lalala~ Carol is a happy banana~ =D

It's the Lunar New Year 2008!

2008-02-10T23:56:00.000+08:00

Cam-whoring is super fun. These are just some of the many photos we took on Day 1.

Omg! Becky sure looks dao man!

Acting cute!! Haha..

And I also took lotsa photos of myself. I know I know.. I'm super zi lian. Thanks!

Peace!

I love this photo! This is the most fattest biggest eeyore I've ever seen. And it's mine! Haha. Even though you occupy half my bed, I still love hugging you! =D

More photos coming up soon!!

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Paiseh ah. I give you attitude again. Will pay it back to you next thursday okay! Hoho.

Shopping with Mame!

2008-02-09T03:14:00.001+08:00

Off we go to do some shopping!!

I forgot where this is cos we went everywhere!! HOoho.

X'mas is coming. And we'll always be shopping!! =X

Bought lots lots lots. And that's not even all. Retail therapy sure is fun!

X'mas!!

2008-02-09T02:59:00.000+08:00

Some photos of me and becky chilling and absorbing the x'mas spirit!! =)

These funny people were marching around orchard road! And becky wants to join in. HAHA!!

Reach out for the stars~

Star jumps!! Whee~

Cheez!

Becky, the next horror moviestar. =X

Whee~ We're inside this golden ball! Haha.

X'mas tree @ the Paragon

The decorations outside Taka are quite pretty!!!

More photos coming up!!

Zeh's back! Big Reunion!

2008-02-09T02:39:00.000+08:00

Since I'm too friggin lazy to write anything, I figured it will be much more convenient using photos!! =)

Zeh's back in SG on 22nd Dec. So we had a BIG reunion dinner! We had dim sum right after leaving the airport and then headed to Clarke Quay for yummy dessert, and then even more lotsa food for dinner as well. Ate so much till I'm going crazy!!

This was on x'mas eve! We had a x'mas BBQ. Super fun man. Bladed here and there and even learnt how to blade backwards. Hoho. Carol's so pro!! =X

Erm. I was just chilling. And I seriously have no idea what my crazy sisters are doing. ???

3 sisters back together. No other reason not to smile for this one. =))

More photos in the next post!

I know.

2007-11-24T01:58:00.000+08:00

Beautiful dreams like that should come true.

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I have a secret. A secret I can't bear to keep. A secret that hurts to keep. A secret that hurts others as well. It is confusing. And it is scary, definitely. But then again, it will hurt even more not kept.

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What's your stake?

Life's like a dream

2007-11-03T01:59:00.000+08:00

I was out dining with zk's parents. The place was mesmerizing and huge like an enchanted garden. The food was great and everyone was happily chatting around. And then, it happened.

I realized that there wasn't anybody and I was running. The dinner table had disappeared and so did everyone else. I just kept on running and running and running... And as I ran, the garden starts to turn dull and dark. But still, I kept on running. I can feel something right in front of me. Suddenly I stopped. Hiding behind those dark flowers and bushes, was this beautiful lake right in front of me. Still there wasn't anybody out there. But I can hear birds chirping and that gave me peace.

I felt lost and helpless. And I sat at the white pavillion by the lake and started crying. The chirping got louder and when I looked up, a little brown one was flying across the lake towards me. Just when I thought its gonna land on my lap, it flew right past above me. Turning back, I found that the little brown bird had disappeared. But sitting there beside me in that white pavillion was none other than you.

That made me glad.
It made me relieved.
You make the tears all disappear.

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And I feel myself smiling.

Hot-headed as ever.

2007-10-17T00:56:00.000+08:00

Is it anything I did? To make me deserve all this shit I'm going through. Hate all these. And I hate myself for acting so stupid. Dumb. Childish. Whatever you wanna call it.

What have you done? To make all this happen. Why? How?

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Hey, if I start. Will you do all you can to change it?
La verdad, lastima.

Thoughts.

2007-10-11T04:02:00.000+08:00

Just needed to blog. Feelings give me the urge to. Helps me find peace. Many times I try to fight this urge, oh wells, need peace badly.

3.49AM
As I lay on my bed face down in my pillow trying to calm all emotions flowing out of me, I can feel eeyore beside me. When I looked up, eeyore is still the same old eeyore. Always sitting beside me, soft and cuddly with arms stretched open as though he's yelling hug me! As much as my heart wants to, my head just rejects the idea. I just don't. Instead, I give it a light kiss before I sleep every night.

Thinking about it now I just can't help but laugh a little especially remembering the note that comes with it. Gosh, it's just funny how ironic things can be. Please, I think I've had my fair share of ironies already.

Lately been doing things that I can never forgive myself for doing. Argh. Frustrating.

Think Mr Fever is gonna visit me, again. Shall let him have my panadols.

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bear hugs.
hug eeyore when u miss me.

Happy!

2007-10-07T03:44:00.000+08:00

Today was great! So decided to brighten up my blog for a change. If not it will look all boring and dull. -__-

Haha. First it was going out with becky! Really enjoy sister company man. We are such retarded morons at times. LOL. Shopped a little and bought a belt and cute little hairclips. Sadly, I had to have fever halfway and felt really exhausted after only combing one storey of far east plaza. Weak man. Managed to finish 3 floors before seeking refuge at subway. Then becky went to meet guan yu and I, zk. Grabbed some panadols on the way. Felt better after seeing zk and gobbling panadols. Ate a little, rot a little and bought something for Pape! Hee. Feel proud about it. =) Shall save the rest of the money! I wanna go diving!!!

After that, zk and I headed off to the west! Took bus and on the way there something really embarassing happened. Stupid zk have to tell the whole world! Bish. Haha. But it was really funny. I was practically grinning and frowning half the bus ride. Grr.

In the end, wy gang and us were chilling and Liquid Kitchen. Was quite fun just rotting and relaxing and laughing. Past week was really getting quite stressful. Gosh! Tml I have to continue studying man! -___- Oh well, at least I enjoyed myself today. Grinz.

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Feeling grateful.

it's been long.

2007-10-06T01:26:00.000+08:00

Every month I do the same thing. Just except for this one. It's such a sad story to tell. I guess, there are no fairy tales in the real world after all. Carol just has to accept that. I'm gonna have to stand on my own two feet as there can never be someone that I can lean and depend on, at least not forever. Though, I've always believed and hoped otherwise. Up till now, I still want to. To believe.
Why is that so?
I still can't help but grieve about this sad fact.

These few weeks, I've learnt with much hurt that I must become stronger. This belief made my days brighter.

Gosh, I can't really explain all my feelings and thoughts right now. There is really too many, and it's too complex. Anyway, for some reason or other, I can't exactly pen down everything over here. I just hope everything will turn out great and that I can be the strong me again.

Cheers for Carol.

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You can never prove me wrong.
Cause you won't.

rush hour.

2007-09-19T01:37:00.001+08:00

Everyone's in a rush nowadays. Being in a rush, makes people forget things. Forgetting to look at the sky, forgetting to relax once in awhile, forgetting to reply my emails (this is for ying), forgetting about caring for others.

My world is kinda slow. I like to walk slowly, do my work slowly, and even sit at a corner day-dreaming. When I looked at the sky today, I realised that it's been quite some time since I've done that. I don't know, it just feels weird. Must be cause I have too much on my mind.
Shall look at my old friend more, then hopefully it doesn't rain that much.

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Miss those happy days. Why?

e 10th.

2007-09-18T00:58:00.000+08:00

Didn't realised it till yesterday. That it had been one year already. Those sad memories, and definitely happy ones too. Looking back, I don't know what emotions I feel for this past anymore. Oh wells, like I once said before. Memories are just that, memories. the past. it's all behind me now.

Had been comforting a couple of friends who are having trouble with their loved ones. Thus, been flashing back a lot recently. Haha. Flashbacks are irritating. They just seem to haunt you wherever you go. Moreover, I've been thinking lots recently. Seems odd, but didn't want it out. Don't know how. Or what. Yea, whatever.

Mid Autumn's coming! Remembering last year, it was no doubt a fun one. Wonder if it will be this time round. Mooncakes, lanterns and ... gosh. rockets =)

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Horrible.

i angry!!!!!

2007-09-06T23:03:00.000+08:00

Hmm. Haven't been updating blog recently.... again. So what happened so far?

Past 2 weeks were quite vexing both with school work and with relationships. Wow, since when did carol bothered about school work? =P Anyway, been easily upset recently though I have no idea why. But when I tell my sister my stories, she says that the fault doesn't really lie with me but with someone else. Which I couldn't disagree but I do know that I'm at fault too. (I'm starting to contradict myself. Shall not confuse myself further.) Anyway, learnt new things that I didn't even knew/nor would I ever have guessed. Was quite shocked and unhappy. Gives me no choice but to start thinking even more.

But this week it gets better! We went out to study during the weekend and dined at Fish n Co to celebrate our 6th month. Hmm. It's been so long already? Didn't felt it till now. Hope it gets longer and that it's all happily ever after. Yeah. Yesterday we even went to watch Hairspray! I skipped something really impt just to watch Hairspray. Initially I was really sad that I'd miss it, but it's a really great movie so it's definitely worth it! Singing, Dancing, Happiness, Dreams, Being different... 'You can't stop the beat!!!~~~~' LOL.

Gosh, there's 201 ICA tomorrow. Studied halfway and wandered over to blog. Why?!? Must be caused I was too sian-ed by ... Grr. Or maybe it's just the stress and that I really miss home. =( Sometimes I just feel like moving back home. Hall life just seem different in Hall13 and without my roomie zhi. Oh, not forgetting buddy FHM. Carol must jia you! I'm sure I can survive this man!!

Shall stop grumbling and study hard. Carol Carol Go! Go! Go!
Hahaha.

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sometimes its sweet and sometimes its...... salty?

Whats wrong.

2007-08-18T03:00:00.000+08:00

Lie on my bed.
Wide awake,
Eyes wide open.
Wonder why I can't seem to fall asleep.

Been sleeping late nights recently. Sometimes because I've got lotsa work. What with pageant stuff and all the stress. Just can't seem to sleep early. Argh. Sometimes I'm just sad. Or issit sian? I have no idea as to what or why either. Maybe due to various reasons. Like last night, was pondering about some stuff. Though it was like 5am already, lights off, roomie asleep. Was still awake and had to stare at the ceiling till I get to doze off. And tonight? No roomie. Nobody here. So lonely. =( So starting to have weird thoughts. Weird thoughts like about eerie stuff. -_- What's wrong with me? Guess everyone else is asleep already. Shall just read my book.

-

Just trying to find boring stuff to do to make myself doze off.

Having fun on National Day~

2007-08-10T09:31:00.000+08:00

Morning 8am, I was woken up by something oh-so-very disastrous! The main source of noise pollution - ah ma singing karaoke, went not only way off-beat but also way off-pitch. I really mean it. It was so loud and disastrous that I woke up saying WTF! (apologies for the vulgarity =P) Apparently there is this fair going on in the carpark just downstairs, what with carnival games and snack booths and not to forget, karoke session for the ah mas and ah peks. But do they hafta do it so early in the morning, on such a nice cooling holiday morning?!? Oh wells, luckily I was in a good mood as it was gonna be a great day!

It is cooking sandwiches day! Zk and I planned on going on a picnic. So went to Shop N Save to buy all the groceries. There was luncheon meat, bread, milk, butter, mozarella cheese, sausages, sausages and more sausages. Haha. Then we head for my place and started preparing our sandwiches. Zk said he did more of the cooking and that I only helped out a little. But at least I did the washing okay! Huh!

After frying our sausages and luncheon meat, and microwaving our sandwiches, we figured we were too lazy and hungry to go for the picnic as planned. So we just gobbled them up while watching tv. Lotsa nice programmes on National Day! Sandwiches were so yummilicious and it feels good to have the whole house all to ourselves. =P After slacking for awhile we headed out for dessert!

Took NEL, got off at Dhoby and walked all the way to Paragon. Yay! Dessert at Coffee Club Paragon. Ate cakes and zk got to drink his earl grey vanilla at last. Cakes, chocolate and ice cream. makes zk a happy boy. Haha. After dessert, we went kino for awhile. And then it was time for me to meet my OG for dinner.

At last an official OG outing. Was wondering what took them so long to organise one. Oh wells, we will have to thank Stella - my new AGL for organising this one. Met at orchard station and walked over to this ulu building (I din check out what building it is) that is opposite the far east plaza, and dined at this mexican restaurant called 3-Monkeys. Mexican... Spanish... I like! And there was even a big screen showing the NDP Live! on Channel 5. Haha. Anyway, ate this dish called Mushroom Quesadilla (Queso = Cheese, Dilla = I have no idea) and drank strawberry banana blend. It was super nice man. Yum yum. Watched NDP and chit chatted while eating. Then somehow, everybody was to engrossed and excited about gossiping that we didn't even bothered about watching the fireworks. NDP seems kinda boring this year. After our long gossiping session, we went to play pool! Yay, my suggestion! Haha. Since there were so many of us and only 3 tables, we decided to play the 5 people game. Had real fun sabotaging each others' balls and yelling at each other. Then it was late, and everyone had to catch the last train, so we headed home.

Reached home, bathed, and then I went out again. Zk's driving me and his friends out to Serangoon gardens for supper and I came home only at around 3. Wow, what a long day! But it was definitely a fun one. =)

-

What a happy day!

Straight Hair?!?

2007-08-05T20:30:00.000+08:00

Was quite fun going for the Lucidol-L sponsorship talk. It was at Jeric Salon (REDS). I was called up to demo for hair straightening. Haha. Cool huh? Yay took many many photos man!! LOL =P

I'm so tempted to straighten my hair, permanently. Grr.

-

Yay! Zk is back already! =)

Somewhere out There

2007-08-01T22:49:00.001+08:00

Somewhere out there,
Beneath the pale moonlight,
Someone's thinking of me,
And loving me tonight.

Somewhere out there,
Someone's saying a prayer,
That we'll find one another,
In that big somewhere out there.

And even though I know how very far apart we are,
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star,
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby,
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky!

Somewhere out there,
If love can see us through,
Then we'll be together,
Somewhere out there,
Out where dreams
Come true

Its the 1st of Aug.

2007-08-01T21:03:00.000+08:00

Been some time since I last updated on the 1st of the month. Hmm. Camp is over. Was definitely fun. Torrio's really rock. There were pool games, war games, mud games. But it had to rain in the midst of beach games at sentosa. Was really dampening our moods... It even rained during amazing race. But we still continued having fun and walking around, or should i say, strolling around. Haha. My freshies were damn slack manz. Should push them to organise an outing soon! Mayb watch fireworks! =) Yay!

School is starting next monday. Somehow I felt that I didn't really enjoy my holidays to its fullest. Work and pageant matters really gave me a lot of stress. Sometimes I just wish to push all those away. But still, no choice. Shall just look forward to the actual event day. It's just about 2 more weeks to go! I'm sure it will be a fantastic event!

Today was photoshoot day. Stupid pageant boy got sick and I hafta go down again tml! Grr. Spoil everything man. Need to wake early yet again. Then plus fri, and sat. Wah!!!! No more waking up during the late mornings already?!? But taking photos and seeing the girs all dressed up was sure fun. Makes me remember our photoshoot last year. Haha.

After that was meet up with zk. Watched Alone, some horror movie from the directors of Shutters. Thought it would be scary but it turned out okay. Nothing can beat Shutters definitely. But as always in a horror movie. I'm covering my eyes with my hands. LOL. Her face really very ugly what. Cannot help it. Zk was quite dead. He's too sick already. As always, he's also too tired. Keep wondering if he's asleep or not. Nah, at least he managed to stay awake.

Walked around and ate dinner at Ajisen. Couldn't eat my volcano ramen (it's the only thing i will eat at Ajisen), since I'm having a bad sore throat/cough/infection... whatever!?! Was quite wasted. But oh wells, at least it was cheap cheap. Can save somebody's pocket. Then right after dinner, we headed for home already. So early man. 8pm only. Was quite sian diao. But no choice. Always seems to be this way, doesn't it? Hmm. Quite sian of always having to go home so early. Especially during holidays. Extra especially, since its already the end of hols and there ain't many chances to stay out late anymore when school starts. =( Sobz. The holidays is all about relaxing, having fun and late nights out, ain't it?

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Wanted to go Mambo. But quite tired and no mood also. Sigh.

heya!

2007-07-20T10:55:00.000+08:00

It's been so long since i last updated! Hmm. What's been up? Watched movies with zk recently. Haha. Too many nice ones this season. There's transformers, die hard 4, did catch surf's up 2 weeks back. Oh and I'm supposed to watch Harry Potter with becky this weekend. Hmm. Wonder if i have any time left, what with my busy schedule. Argh.

But i can't wait! Soon, it will be UOC! can start scouting for cute guys and hawt babes man! =P Hanging out with all my mates again, and te-kanning all the freshies would be fun! Hope there will be good contestants for the pageant man. Haha.
-MYSTIQUE-Where Beauty Unravels.

Tonight gonna go zouk! Yay-ness!

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Just feels so alone at times. Esp late at night. Mayb it's what night-time does to people. It makes them feel like you're alone. Mayb I should get used to it.

Been tiring out my eyes recently. Should have let them rest, else they'll turn up all ugly. But, it just happens uncontrollably. You know what I mean? Yea. I agree that it's dumb and stupid. I'm dumb and stupid. Period.

But every cloud has a silver lining. Soon school will start and it's a new beginning for all of us! Keep it going.

Fixing a Broken Heart

2007-07-08T01:48:00.000+08:00

There was nothing to say the day you left
I just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I hailed a taxi in the rain
Looking for some place to ease the pain, ooh

Then like an answered prayer
I turned around and found you there

You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can't cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart

And now I don't understand what I'm going through
Must be a plan that led me to you
Because the hurt just disappears
In every moment that you are near, yeah

Just like an answered prayer
You make the loneliness easy to bear

You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can't cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart

Soon the rain will stop falling baby
And I'll forget the past
Cause here we are at last

You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can't cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart

-

my favorite duet

drive me crazy.

2007-07-08T01:39:00.000+08:00

happy!

sad..

happy!

sad..

happy!

sad..

i can't make up my mind. zzz. can't take all these in my small pathetic little heart anymore. really exhausting.

-

n he still has mood for game.
grr...

please...

Sorrys.

2007-06-17T04:23:00.000+08:00

a small number of friends who know me well enough will know that i'm a person who doesn't really like sorrys, be it me being the one saying it or the one hearing it. just don't feel good both ways. in fact, to me it feels horrible.

rainbow connection

2007-06-09T02:32:00.001+08:00

original song by kermit the frog =P

long time no update.

2007-06-09T01:13:00.000+08:00

Yay. this week was a really great one. well at least on the days when i don't have any work. haha.

Sun
sent ky off at the airport. felt so bad cos i didn't have much time to hang out with her this holiday. =( oh wells. must save enough money to go visit her next hols. =PP miss you gal! hope we can shop like mad, play like mad, gossip like mad soon enough just like the good old days we had back in dhs and tj days.

Mon
a day where i can rot and rest my entire day. never had a good rest ever since genting trip last tues. zzz.

Tues
what a great day with zk! a day to soak up the sun at sentosa. weather was freaking hot though. sweating like mad even before reaching siloso beach. bladed along the beach. have to tell you the cycling trail is totally neither suitable nor safe for blading! seriously there are drains and bumpy roads. and trucks were everywhere. i ended up with bruises on my knee and palms. argh! practically sat there and cried. (nah. just exaggerating!) oh wells. continued blading even with bruises. the wound was so bloody i had to clean it every 20m i bladed. -_-

after blading, we laid at the beach to get some sun. was freaking red by then. and the sun was just nice. not exactly hot but just warm and bright. love it. almost fell asleep right beside him. swam for an hour too. though the water tasted really salty it was still super fun.

after the beach it was window shopping at vivo. walked lots. almost the whole of vivo. can't believe i can finish walking vivo without getting lost. haha. =P

Wed
out with him again. this day its time for my long awaited pirates of the carribean! aww. just can't help but go gaga over johnny depp. ain't he just so charming? like totally! the movie was okay. just a lil to long n weird in the middle. and some parts i just can't seem to get it. it's a lil too messy. anyway walked orchard after tt. zk keep browsing lappy stuff. lol. too excited about his new lappy. =P i can't wait to shop too! no sweat. i can start this sun! at last my pay is here! haha.

Then its work for thu, fri and sat. grr. only left with sat for now. home the clock ticks faster tml and my weekend arrives sooner! then sun can shop and hang out with my family! yay-ness!

-

its fun cos you're with me. =)
see you monday.

Losing grip

2007-05-24T02:22:00.000+08:00

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby?
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say

I was left to cry there
Waiting outside there
Grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided

Why should I care?
Cause you weren't there
When I was scared
I was so alone

You, You need to listen
I'm starting to trip
I'm losing my grip
And I'm in this thing alone

Am I just some chick you placed beside you
To take somebody's place?
When you turn around can you recognize my face?
You used to love me, you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't okay

I was left to cry there
Waiting outside there
Grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided

Why should I care?
Cause you weren't there
When I was scared
I was so alone

You! You need to listen
I'm starting to trip
I'm losing my grip
And I'm in this thing alone

Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud

Open your eyes!
Open up wide

Why should I care?
Cause you weren't there
When I was scared I was so alone

Why should I care?
If you don't care
Then I don't care
We're not going anywhere

2007-05-24T02:01:00.000+08:00

Tuesday was a fun day. Headed to orchard to meet my boy. walked around and ate a little and then we went to the funfair at woodlands. Walked the pasar malam and wanted to try those rides. OMG. from far those rides seem like nothing, but up close they are so super high up in the sky. There was this mini ferris wheel and the washing-machine ride i tried in sunway lagoon. but the rides costs super ex. 10 bucks for just tt few minutes? hmm. so we settled with one super exciting one. was looking at the ride, pondering and pondering. what the heck. just take it! but just when i got up on that tall huge machine and seatbelts were on for only one second and i cant wait to get off. argh. super scary. was screamin n sulking even before it started moving. and when it did started moving i just couldnt stop myself from screaming my lungs out. screamed so much till i cried. come to think of it, it seems super dumb. i must have looked stupid. haha. but it was fun! i conquered that scary ride! =) at least, at the end of the day, i did accomplish something. after that we rewarded ourselves with sinful snacks from the pasar malam and waffles from gelare. indeed, tuesday is gelare day~ yippie.

but wednesday was super sad. went blading with luke, but after only 10mins? and it started pouring like mad. hiding out at the shaded benches weren't of much help since the wind was so freaking strong. it was freaking cold i had to hug myself. think im gonna fall sick already. -_-

came home and rotted. thought can meet up since im busy for the next whole week. but too bad. dun wanna see you also. hrmph.

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beginning to think that i have IHD syndrome.

Darling!

2007-05-19T05:03:00.000+08:00

missing you right now. quickly come back.. =(

hey!!! quick come back!!!! =(

2007-05-16T01:54:00.000+08:00

zk is at hokkaido enjoying himself.. =( poor me down with flu and fever. argh. my nose stuck like some air tight container. feeling horrible. been sick for the past few days.

quick come back!

haha tml is blading time~ and dinner date with ky zhi n xj again! its been such a long time since we 4 hung out! haha. miss you all!!

-

miss you.

010507

2007-05-02T12:51:00.000+08:00

yay! it's alr 010507. time sure pass quickly. it's really been a long time since i last posted photos, so here goes! anyway, we met around 6 and as usual i was late. well, you have to give me credit for reaching only 6 mins late. =P walked about and decided to dine at coffee club @ taka. took lotsa photos but i shall only post a few.

me and my sinful mocha. =P

my boy! hee.

what are you looking at!!

ain't i super cute!! =P (pls puke somewhere else.. haha!)

haha. anyway walked around orchard and went home. nothing much at orchard except shopping.. -_- i wanna go east coast!!! blade!!! haha.

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love ya! muacks.

life is hard.

2007-04-30T02:22:00.000+08:00

have you ever tried all your best for an important someone and yet what you get back in return is a myob snap at the face? well, i guess it happens many times...

i just can't help but feel super pissed and disappointed. can't swallow it down anymore. wanna rant rant rant! i mean, everyone else is trying to help and wishing for you to be better and you don't even have the right attitude towards your own problem. lame excuses were always given and at too many a times, plain silence even. look at yourself. do you have the right to expect anything of others and for everyone else to do as you please? are we all slaves of mighty you? one look at your attitude and i'm super turned off alr. and yet there are people who will willingly help you and not just because of the call of responsibility, it is for love. if only you could understand. you could just show some appreciation to those people.

hurts me to see everybody blaming everybody else and you just don't see it, do you? it has always been how you feel and how you are. such that we are starting to be oblivious to how the rest feels.

please,
wake up.

-

forgive and forget all unhappiness and just look forward?

it's the 3 month holidays!

2007-04-29T00:58:00.000+08:00

yup. exams are finally over. it's time for catching up with my all-time favourite activities. blading, swimming, squashing, shopping, sleeping and my piano. lotsa other stuff to do too. like spending more time with my family and packing my stuff.. omg! there's too much to do!!

anyways, it feels great having finally finished all papers. this sem seems to be so much tougher than the last!! well, it may be due to me not studying much, skipping tutorials, lectures and all. argh. seriously i should buck up for next sem.

-

yesterday was quite fun! went imm with zk. finally did some shopping though imm is really boring.. but i still managed to buy some clothes from espirit! and wow.. zk actually has nice taste in clothes. wahaha. im so proud of what i bought man. then went over to his house to slack and it was off to vivo to meet tall wy and lil sharon. haha. vivo. nothing much cheap for dinner ended up at foodrepublic which turn out to have great food actually. yum. after eating it was shopping again. felt like buying everything man oh and i realised that pull and bear has really cool stuff! yay! a new place for me to shop at. after walking so much it was time for me to rush back to hall and pack my stuff while i wait for pape.

argh. my room was in such a mess. freaking lotsa stuff to bring home and i wonder how am i supposed to manage? and my computer!!! gosh. anyway i packed real fast and squashed as much clothes as i could in that small pathetic carrier (actually it was rather huge =P), threw a whole big bag of stuff away, and there were still so much stuff left. -__-.. oh wells, pape came so i just left it at that. anyway on the way home we decided to pay a visit to the seletar reservoir. haha. super funny we were peeking into cars we passed by and guessing if there were anybody in them. =P oops. anyway i realised that seletar reservoir is quite huge and i only like saw half of it? when we headed home, pape started reminiscing his street racing days. super love these on-the-way-home chats with him. haha. feels good to cheer up his tired working days. =)

anyway when i reached home i had to unpack all my clothes and stuff. super tired. took a bath and went to lala land.

went to becky's concert today. haha. super funny with the princess skit lotsa bloopers and that great deep purple medley! realised sajc has quite a few young pretty boys. haha =P and i get to see becky shake her butt on stage. it's just too bad it wasn't a solo. wahaha. went east coast for dinner/supper. stingray, satay, hokkien mee and chicken wings again! omg. seriously i should start dieting. ~tengo demasiado gafas. -_-

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estoy cansado. voy a hacer una ducha ahora. adios.

Dear Kayan,

2007-04-21T13:34:00.000+08:00

my darling friend of 10 years! haha. omg we're so old alr? argh. it's been a great 10 years. slacking with you during your prefect recess duties.. to going to dhs and co da zu sessions.. and slacking and gossiping during tjco practices aww. missed those days huh? hee. anyway it's your 21st birthday! Always stay happy and crazy! And..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

=)

white flag - Dido

2007-04-18T21:02:00.001+08:00

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
Or tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

But I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess
And destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of It's over
Then I'm sure that that makes sense

But I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All I was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

-

stupid exams. can't wait for holidays!! yes! there's 9 days to go. =)
keep it going everybody!

happy birthday.

2007-04-10T01:18:00.000+08:00

happy birthday!
though it's a few days late.
Seriously sorry about that. =P

May all your birthday wishes come true.

-

0704

omg! i miss you!

2007-04-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

haha. can't wait for exams to be over man. then i can play till mad, shop till mad, sleep till mad even. argh. must jia you. let's all start mugging!!

-

missing you lots. though its only been 2 days since i last saw you.. argh. =(

way back into love.

2007-04-02T12:55:00.000+08:00

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction and I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping that you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you'll help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

-

music n lyrics

happy one month! zk!

2007-04-02T00:44:00.000+08:00

been so busy with work lately. what with all the projects and assignments and upcoming quizzes. omg! and it's only 2 weeks away from the exams! time sure flys like a rocket. can't wait to enjoy my 3 month hols! wahaha.

and yayness! its one month already. shall have more months to come. =) didn't do much today. but really enjoyed the sumptious dinner. yum yum chocolate overload. ice-cream makes carol a crazy gal. =P

-

hey!! find me something else to paste on that wall??
miss ya.

The Rainbow Connection

2007-03-20T20:32:00.000+08:00

Why are there so many songs about rainbows
and what's on the other side?
Rainbows are visions, but only illusions,
and rainbows have nothing to hide.
So we've been told and some choose to believe it.
I know they're wrong, wait and see.
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection.
The lovers, the dreamers and me.

Who said that every wish would be heard
and answered when wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that and someone believed it.
Look what it's done so far.
What's so amazing that keeps us star gazing
and what do we think we might see?
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection.
The lovers, the dreamers and me.

All of us under its spell. We know that it's probably magic.

Have you been half asleep and have you heard voices?
I've heard them calling my name.
Is this the sweet sound that called the young sailors.
The voice might be one and the same.
I've heard it too many times to ignore it.
It's something that I'm supposed to be.
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection.
The lovers, the dreamers and me.

-

i love rainbows~

the new road awaits. a new life begins.

2007-02-25T02:49:00.000+08:00

can't wait for things to go on moving. it's time for me to go on. to move on.

whenever i'm walking alone along any other path, my thoughts just can't help but swim back to the past. and then, my heart just feels so heavy. but, whenever i look up at the sky, i just felt that i wasn't alone after all. the sky is always up there like a soft cotton blanket, whether it's white or gray, bright or dark. it just makes me feel so much better and i will just smile to myself.
=) i just love the sky..

so carol, let the past stay behind. and the new life begins.

-

memories are just memories. it has no power. it is now that matters.

fly me to the MOON

2007-02-25T01:38:00.000+08:00

Fly me to the moon
Let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like on
Jupiter and Mars

In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby, kiss me

Fill my heart with song
And let me sing forever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore

In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

-

when you wake up and the sun is shining, the girl that you love, loves you too.

what's up??

2007-02-17T04:08:00.000+08:00

haha. quite a fruitful week! last sunday celebrated my sister's birthday! went to some place at ang mo kio to eat seafood. yum! there was so much food on the table we just couldn't finish them up. chilli crabs, crayfish, prawns, vege, and i can't remember alr.. it feels great to eat out as a family! =) i love my family!

went shopping with mom on monday. we practically walked the whole afternoon till evening and only managed to get shoes and belts. but we ate ichiban sushi! zeh and becks came over too. sushi is damn cheap over there. we just kept ordering and ordering. the table was filled with everything. i love the chawan mushi, but sashimi ain't tt fresh. hmm. i miss the sashimi at taman jurong. yum yum! after dinner my sis came over to hall with me to stay over. and i practically spent the whole afternoon of tuesday studying. felt really lazy that day and even skipped spanish. =P okay i feel so guilty now. haha.

wednesday, and it's february the 14th, valentine's day. been say 5 days since i last saw zk? haha. was a freaking long day. morning had lessons at 830! omg. i hate my timetable. then there was boring OB, went to dreamland halfway through though i tried hard to hang around. -_-.. had lessons till 630 man. so late. but the night was fun! zk surprised me a lot. with flowers and the cute lil eeyore and dinner and the hearts. it's like i feel so showered with presents. haha. i feel really bad. i can feel the burn in his pockets. ouch! but i have to admit that he's really sweet! =) thanks zk and ya.. you were very handsome that day la. =P LOL. cabbed over to his place and he drove me back hall. by then it was alr 2 plus. -__-.. super late. haha. happy night. now i have 3 eeyores of different sizes on my bed. hugz!

argh. thursday had 2 quizzes. and i din study for one of them. i think it's a gone case for econs and hope i do pass accounting. =P oh well. i'm still glad their over. haha. after my quiz i had to rush over to granny's for reunion dinner! we had steamboat as usual. and it was super duper fun! there was lots of snatching and screaming among our laughters. i just love steamboats. can't wait for new year! (more like the angbaos.. haha) went back to hall after.

friday.. slept till afternoon and went shopping with zk! haha. bought another dress for new year! yayness! went vivo with luke to catch ghost rider and shopped somemore. i walked so much my legs ache. haha but shopping is always fun! had the urge to buy the whole of forever21 manz. =P

okok. its 4plus alr. better listen to someone and turn in for the night. =) there is much spring cleaning to do tml.

argh. back is aching from too much retail therapy. =(

-

saving me.

HEY!!!

2007-02-12T00:31:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday, Becky! =)
your sister loves you.

-carol =)

te quiero

2007-02-07T20:32:00.000+08:00

If you leave me now
Telling me you failed somehow
Better think it all over
Just as long as love's around

Here's a true romance
Be aware and take your chance
Tomorrow I'm gonna leave you
But I am here for you tonight

Every single day I want you to know
My love is true
So baby let me show you what to do

Just a little bit more love
Just a little bit more passion
This is how it should begin
Skin on skin

Just a little getting close
Just a little more affection
'Cause I don't think it's a sin
Skin on skin

Don't you know that this game is to play
Just as long as it's time
Can't you see that my heart's gotta know
When you're gonna be mine

Just a little more love
Just a little more love

So we better get it on
What is here will soon be gone
When the leaves are falling
Then maybe we could fall apart

And there may come a time
When you will forget
My love is true
So baby let me show you what to do, ooh

Just a little bit more love
Just a little bit more passion
This is how it should begin
Skin on skin

Just a little getting close
Just a little more affection
'Cause I don't think it's a sin
Skin on skin

Don't you know that this game is to play
Just as long as it's time
Can't you see that my heart's gotta know
When you're gonna be mine

Just a little more love
Just a little more love

skin on skin - sarah conner

-

dream a little dream of you

argh. i'm so angry.

2007-02-06T23:09:00.000+08:00

stupid stupid zk!!! haha. (good that i can scold him here.) argh angry!!!

go ahead study for your test. nvm. i go with someone else.
-_-..

-

wanted to spend it with someone else though. argh. =(

what's been up?

2007-02-05T01:17:00.000+08:00

lately been busy with school work. got so much upcoming projects to busy myself with. but still got so much time to think about a certain someone. cos too many places and things around me remind me of him. i just think that it's so frustrating. how did carol end up like that? so dumb and stupid.

sometimes i just think that he never gives me a clear-cut answer to anything. his ambiguity is hanging me like a noose. -_-.. yes. it's what's hanging me up there for so long. wish that he can just quickly find himself a gf. so i can really give up. quick quick. let me wake up!

ah!! saw the amulet. then remember stuff. then while talking to zk i couldn't hold them back any longer. grr. carol was never like that before? but shouldn't talk about this kinda stuff to zk also. like i don't wanna know the bad stuff he needs to tell me too. i'm so angry that he had to tell me. i'd rather not know. i know that he just want to be truthful. but there are things that are better left unsaid.

-

a fresh new start?

unhappy or happy?

2007-01-28T23:58:00.000+08:00

this week.
i guess many happy things and unhappy things happened. unhappy things like quarrels and stuff. i should have been more mean and not take in those criticizing and insults. i know that i had been very cruel but i don't see any other way out. just because things did not happen the way he wante, that does not give him the right to say those mean things about me. i rather not listen at all. i did give him a chance, i could jolly well have ignored him all this while.
goodbye.

then there are happy things like finally meeting the one that i've been missing so much. though it was just a simple study meet-up, i'm really glad we did. there are times i feel that he's so near yet so far and keep have the urge to act like i shouldn't. argh. mayb i should just do what i feel like doing and stop thinking too much. it's just so tiring to think about all the thiss and the thats. i have to be selfish at times to make sure i have my happy life.

-

missing you. though i don't know if you feel the same way, i'm still missing you.

its just the beginning.

2007-01-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

well, just started clearing up my messy life. still feel kinda lost. its like i still dont know what i'm actually doing. told jl about my decision and stuff last week. felt really terrible that day. was quite scared but i guess i know he will not harm me. frankly, i did think that i may regret my decision one day. it's like i may not find another guy that likes me so much? i don't really know. hmm. i just know that right now it's too much for me to take. still, i seriously hope that we can still be friends. maybe not right now. but after some time.

really wish i can go back to few months back, when life for me is still great and almost perfect. right now i just feel that i've lost something in me. though i don't know what something that is, i know that it's something precious. =(

-

meeting him later. hmm. dont know why keep thinking of him. grr..

i've made up my mind.

2007-01-20T15:05:00.000+08:00

yes. i've made up my mind. i know what i'm going to do. i'm just afraid i don't have enough courage.

i'm so sorry.

-

thanks for everything.

spinning and spinning..

2007-01-15T14:39:00.000+08:00

my head is spinning like mad. don't know what i'm thinking. don't know what i want. can't seem to concentrate on anything. grr. it's really driving me nuts. carol is so screwed up.

too lazy to think right now. i know i'm very selfish but i just hope everything will turn out right, that all problems will go away. i don't want to feel this moody anymore.

my nose is starting to tingle. better stop thinking already.

-

why?

it's been a long time.

2007-01-01T17:10:00.000+08:00

you brighten up my days.

it's been a long time since i've ever felt so happy! thanks lots jl. =) can't wait to see you again! can't wait till wednesday already. i wanna see you everyday! haha. =P

whenever i see his messages i get so happy. then i will realise that i'm smiling to myself like an idiot. hee. am i really an idiot? yes, it feels like a dream. and i too hope that this dream will never ever end. i want to stay.

it's like i've just been forced right out of my wonderland and you pulled me back in.
=)

-

one important lesson learnt. be wary of who to trust.

merry x'mas.

2006-12-25T22:43:00.000+08:00

it's christmas day. just came home from kembangan. haha. played abit of bball with zhonghua n ping.. floor so freaking slippery. zz. let's talk about how i spent this festive season!

well, for x'mas eve woke up at around 12 i guess. then went to eat mee soto with ying! yummy. it's been such a long time since i mee soto-ed. haha. went home to bathe and make cards and prepare presents. did everything in a rush and then went to the station to meet jl. haha we went marina square to watch 'the curse of the golden flower'. erm. it's a okay movie. i guess.. haha. oh and when jay appeared everybody laughed for dunno what reason. lol. its quite an interesting movie but the soldiers fighting part was really boring. and it had a stupid ending. oh well. enough with this funny movie. after movie it was walking at esplanade and chatting at merlion park. gave him the card i made. and he likes it! hee. i got artistic talent okay. have to thank him for my present too. =) thanks lots for spending x'mas eve with me too.

then ying called and tell me she is at marina bay.. not marina square. haha. such a big joker. at around midnight. met ying to go countdown over at orchard. had lotsa fun spraying and screaming and sneak-attacking. saw lotsa cute guys too. =P after some time cabbed back to raimah for supper. shared a roti john and we got too full already. rotted at cc for so freaking long just to wait for some freaking person. just can't help but get pissed off sometimes. well, seriously nobody can blame me for feeling this way. to think i spent so much. but its okay. ying and me can just change everything and make it sound like just a big joke! haha.

head back for ying's at around 3plus? gosh. waited for so long man. at ying's i mario-karted till 5 before i went to meet my prince charming in lala land. hee.

well on xmas day? we went to escape theme park. there were ying's cousins and fhm. haha. well it was quite fun and really cheap. it's only 6 bucks. everything was fun till it start to rain. damn. waited so damn long for the go kart ride! oh well. it was sorta worth it. really fun! vroom vroom. came back to kemb to bball. yep. shagged and sick.

-

you tried to hide it. you wanted to.
as usual. COWs go forWARD.

the greatest gift on earth.
is one that i will treasure and keep with me. i'll only throw it away if i don't want it anymore.
are you throwing it away already?
-_-.. how i know? your mind too complex for my understanding..

grr. i'm crapping.

2006-12-20T12:47:00.000+08:00

secret post dated Nov27-
..i know he is a nice guy that cares for me. that is why i am worried that i may be fickle and hurt him. i really can't bring myself to let that happen. and yet after thinking so much recently, i can't help but fear that that day will come. it will come. but right now i am really happy when i'm with him. that's all that matters to me now. the present.

there was once i said to someone, 'you came too late. this is all i've ever wished for for the past 2 years. but now its too late. you came too late. cos now my heart belongs to another.'
-won't you say the same?

it seems that there is no more present.
my head's got this whirring sound all the time, it just makes me feel dizzy. running in the rain sure doesn't help much. watching him go makes things even worse. i just couldn't help but ...

i'm sure i can still live without him. cos yes, carol is a strong girl. she wants to protect herself from hurt. but it's just too painful. sometimes she needs someone to protect her too.

so cold and distant, he doesn't even dare to come near me.
bet he doesn't even dare to come here. to read this. ha! there's no use in feeling guilty. it doesn't change anything.

one thing that i have to count myself lucky about is that there wasn't some stupid letter. gosh. i really pity her. hope she's doing fine now.

-

'do you trust me?' that's what you said and what i did.
now there's not enough integrity for that to come out from you anymore.

SNAP!

2006-12-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

consider myself lucky that he contacted me just before i was going to snap. grr. i think im blinded by my own anger, i can't even think straight. in fact, i don't know what i'm thinking or what i'm feeling. my mind's just a blank. oh wells, shall stop thinking then. let's talk about random stuff.

went for 1504 class outing. it was a last minute thing, thus the turn up rate was all time low. we went sentosa and the sky was crying like nobody's business. poor us get all drenched up and we were still playing funny ball games. the only satisfying thing was dinner at sakae. i just love sashimi. the scallop thingy was nice too. yum yum. oh there was a special guest too. haha. welcome to 1504. =)
something about yesterday made my heart so sour. freak you.

random stuff random stuff.
oh. a stupid auntie stole my umbrella. got home all wet just now. luckily i stayed very very nearby. on second thought it didn't really matter cos it just takes 5 seconds to get drenched to the skin under that rainstorm.
haha. this is really random.

anyway, ying's coming back. can't wait. i wanna play more bball, hang around with her and spend less time thinking about stuff. hey. at the mention of this she's coming back 2 days from now! omg! i better go find out her flight number n arrival time now. haha

-

throat hurts. hope i get well soon.
poor me. i'm sick and that J is nowhere to be seen.
freak you.

he has it all in his hands.

2006-12-10T11:13:00.000+08:00

am i given a choice? am i even allowed to say anything?

10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2..

2006-12-10T00:51:00.000+08:00

1

now im left with 1. LOL. irritating.
is there another chance?

tick tick tick.

2006-12-09T00:27:00.000+08:00

time is passing by too quickly! argh no! haha.
anyway, once again i really wanna thank all of you. yink khuan, hong ming, ky, ying, jl, becky, god bro and many others who brighten up my day in one way or another! yay-ness. =)

oh and thank lay hong for that early christmas prezzie you got me. hmm. christmas is coming soon. hope everythings' good by then.
carol! think positive gal!

-

2
ticking too quickly. time.

why?

2006-12-07T21:48:00.000+08:00

why? what? how? i keep asking myself.
gosh. i really have no idea.

is it better not to find out? will ignorance be a much better choice?

sigh. i don't know but i really hate things to hang around like that. it's like feelings and thoughts zooming across your mind like nobody's business. it's making me sick and weary. all the sadness has drained me of my energy.

reminds me of what my sister did about a month ago. how much i missed her. and how i felt so betrayed when she just went away like that. bringing so much misery.
and now, this. can't take it anymore.

but i have to thank my friends! they cheer me up so so much. =) i just love them.
but still..

-

3

i miss you so much. don't you?

thoughts.

2006-12-07T02:49:00.000+08:00

recent thoughts:

number 1
do you know what hurt does to love?

it transforms love into hatred.

number 2:
the most difficult task ever is to hold back your tears.

hmm. what do you think?
*pondering...

-

4

2006-12-04T10:29:00.000+08:00

Every now and then we find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found

I know you can't stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay

I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
If life will just be kind
To such a gentle mind
And If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way

I don't need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
And I know that you'll be there
For ever more a part of me you're everywhere
I'll always care

I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
If life will just be kind
To such a gentle mind
And if you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way

And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you
I'll be standing by your side in all you do
And I won't ever leave
As long as you believe
You just believe...

remember me this way - jordan hill

-

6

Donde son mis estrellas? y mi corazon?

stupid idiot

2006-12-02T18:21:00.000+08:00

sob sob.

=(

-

8

whee! exams are over!

2006-12-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

yep, exams are totally over. well, at least for now. =) one semester's gone! great! it's now the holidays.

yet again, i feel so bored not studying. and i'm so free at home i'm getting headache from lying on the bed too much. compared to my holidays about 4, 5 months ago. argh! no night life. hey people! ask me out more often. out for a drink also not bad.
he's still having sch. prolly cant be out late. in fact, he's prolly sleeping already. sigh, can't even go out late at night. argh! ok. i'm just whining.

been having some problems in my head recently. but sometimes i ain't even sure what's bothering me. just, 'stuff' i guess. i don't know. mayb i should just really spend all my free time squashing or something. then these 'stuff' won't bother me so much.

-

bleh. bad mood. stay away.
9

to my dearest sister.

2006-10-31T01:30:00.000+08:00

to my dearest lil sister.

please wake up! perhaps reflect a little. i mean seriously, you're wrecking not only yourself but practically the whole family. don't tell me you want to make them give up on you.

being their hollow pipe of communication. i think i'm maxed out. if you ask why did i have to take up this responsibility of watching out for you guys? it is for family. it is for you.

don't say that you hate them. don't use this word. such a strong word. don't use it because it hurts. you're not being responsible. think of how painful it will be if they knew.

i don't see what's so different. how is it that you will feel this way and yet all 3 of us are treated equally. and yet, in fact, you are given more attention.

so, please please wake up okay?

love,
ur dearest sister.

great weekend meeting up!

2006-10-23T01:36:00.000+08:00

ooh! what a fun weekend! though sadly, alvin is half-dead over at malaysia hiking during the past weekend. hee. aww, so sad. =P

let's take a look at my weekend!

Friday
woke up at 12 plus and had to rush over to dover to find alvin! haha then we went to marina square to watch movie. we watched the Prestige. very amazing show. the magic, and the suspense. really interesting movie, though it has a really cruel ending.
so very cruel.
after the movie, alvin had to rush off to customs.

Saturday
woke up at 12noon and it's time to go find my sis! we went eating and shopping. aww. we forgot to catch that fried mars bar again! gosh. must remember the next time! romeo called, and hitched a ride from jonathan over to romeo's for deepavali! Happy Deepavali! boss was there too.. ate spicy curry and played around with henna! i did a great one for jon. stupid him, had to rubbed it off so soon. grr. oh and romeo has really cute brothers. woohoo! =P
around 10plus, we went over to this pub with chinese music to look for his wife, maomao. omg! romeo has such lousy sense of direction manz. he directed us round circles after circles. guys sure have lousy sense of direction. haha after drinking and fooling around for awhile, we bought supper back to romeo's house. rotted for awhile, then jon sent me home. woah! only got to sleep at 4plus. =_=. dark eye circles popping out.

Sunday
woke up at 12noon (yet again) and rotted awhile before i start to get ready for 1504 class outing! we met at vivo city. woah issit big or wat? very colourful layout but i really hate those walkways with glass railings. irritating. there were lotsa nice shops like forever21! haha. anyway we walked around and reached this playarea thingy for kids. it was freaking crowded and noisy. just when i thought that it was so easy for kids to get lost there, a lil girl just started running around us and yelled for MAR-MEEE. aww. poor thing. oh, and there was this really funny guy that holds a "SHOP" sign and doing weird dance moves, i mean if you even call those dance moves. haha. he really looked damn goofy with the outfit and everything, that i couldn't help but laugh whenever i looked at him. i didn't mean to laugh out that loud.
seriously. =P
after much walking about u-turning, we decided to dine at the asiankitchen. then we ate cake at the amphitheatre to celebrate brenda's birthday! Happy Birthday Brenda! hopefully she isn't so cheeky anymore now that she's one year older. haha.

-

okay, now i'm back at hall. feeling sleepy already.
can't wait for tuesday to come. =)

busy

2006-10-19T12:51:00.000+08:00

haha. i'm supposed to be studying for my accounting test later on. but i'm over here listening to music and slacking. =P

argh. so tired these days. keep staying up late at night. need more beauty sleep. if not more wrinkles will appear. =_=... haha.

-exercise exercise!!! let's go rollerblading!!! =)

argh.

2006-10-14T01:30:00.000+08:00

frustrating frustrating. so many projects and assignments nowadays!! no time for exercise. i bet i've put on lotsa weight!

-

where are you now? wonder if you're thinking of me.
spare more time for me k?

10/10/06

2006-10-10T14:37:00.000+08:00

hey! it's the day at last! haha. can't wait to see you again tomorrow.

-

i love you, alvin. =)

update update update!

2006-09-28T18:57:00.000+08:00

am supposed to be drafting my accounting report. got sick of it so came over here! well, lets see what i was up to this week.

MONDAY
slept till 12. then had to go for UOC meeting all the way at NTU. grr. guess what? AGLs' presence was not needed. after some grumbling to my GL, i went back to my hall and rotted till it was time to go find alvin! gosh! missed him so much! at last he's back from his kayaking trip. =) met at dover and zoomed over to ps to catch john tucker. woohoo, such a nice movie since there's such a cute leading actor. haha. after dinner we had to head home since he had lessons the next morning.

TUESDAY
studied studied till it was time to meet zeh at yoga class. haha. omg it's HOT yoga, and believe me, the room was very, very HOT. i'm amazed i managed to survived the session. perspiration was dripping like fountains!! haha but i had to admit, for a beginner, i did quite well and managed to do, well... say about 80% of the poses! haha. after the yoga session we visited the steambath. whoo! it was so 'steamy' i couldn't even see my hands in front of me, not forgetting it was so freaking hot that i almost felt like fainting. after a few moments, i had to leave as i swear i would have fainted if i did stay in that oven for another second. after bathing its dinner with sisters and back to hall.

WEDNESDAY
rotted with sis at hall till evening and paid a visit to MB. actually my main purpose was to get my pay from july/aug. haha. yay! more money rolling in! to celebrate the special moment, my sis and i went to dine at pepper lunch! then it was home sweet home. =) phoned alvin and talked till 3plus. hmm, can't wait for fri. miss ya!
oh it's jinglun's birthday! happy birthday!! =)

THURSDAY
slept till 12 again! haha. carol's such a pig. today, it's homework all day. am rushing work to meet datelines. argh.

-

oh well, it's-back-to-work time. datelines datelines and datelines...

ciao for now!

2006-09-19T12:14:00.000+08:00

100906. A special day to keep in my heart. =)

2006-09-16T01:08:00.000+08:00

ooo. somone's eye-candy over here!! heez.

weiqi n me! love u gal!

yummilicious haagen dazz icecream! i wanna eat tt fondue!! argh.

yep some photos from the photo shoot. hmm. look up look down also don't resemble what i see in the mirror.

oops. i look like i'm stoning. hahaz.

anyway! love you guys! lets catch a movie sometime soon! =)

2006-09-03T17:31:00.000+08:00

lots of stuff happened recently. i'm kinda exhausted by all those troubles. tired of helping friends in their relationships, when i myself already have problems of my own. ha! relationships gives nothing but trouble. hope all these can just quickly resolve on their own.
studies are of more importance!

tired!!! maybe i should place some attention in my feelings for awhile.

-

ying left this early morning. so sad! come back for only 2 short weeks. dumbo! you better come back for next semester holidays!

it's been a long time.

2006-08-17T02:12:00.000+08:00

well, i haven't been updating lately. LOL too busy with school. what with lectures, tutorials, camps, parties and many many outings. hmm. NTU life so far is fun for me. though i should really start doing some work. anyway, i'll post some photos of TUSCAN and SIDI soon. haha. too lazy to do it now. =P

been neglecting life outside NTU, should spend some time with family and friends this weekend. =)

walkathon in shopping malls.

2006-07-18T01:27:00.000+08:00

the KL trip was indeed a walkathon. from shopping malls to tent-shops. from monorails to LRT. haha. should have gone for the foot reflexology sessions. anyway i'm too lazy to blog. zhi got the detailed entry. just link over. ha3. =P

http://simplyhaven.blogspot.com/2006_07_01_simplyhaven_archive.html

very long entry. take your time!

i'm a burned pig!

2006-07-07T22:52:00.000+08:00

MONDAY
went tanning in the morning. gosh, so freaking hot! i can almost feel this sheet of burning coal blanket over me. phew!

in the evening met up with romeo, maomao and dan at harbour front for the MB outing. set off for sentosa together. after pitching the tent and playing a few round of cards then did the rest appeared. by then, i was starving like mad. we took another few moments to start the fire and yea! it's bbq time. hai was damn wacky and entertaining. haha. got to know more about my colleagues.
the bbq was fun, played stupid and weird games and dancing about to hot music! it was a crazy night. but there was a price to pay! i got so drunk and felt so horrible! ended up puking at the beach. felt so exhausted that i just sat there beside my puke. haha. i must have looked freaky that day.
didn't sleep much. hai was scaring dan with all the army ghost stories. quite entertaining to watch dan get so freaked out by all those stories. =P

TUESDAY
after all those stories, it was almost dawn already. time for some morning exercise! tossed frisbees and then went into the water for a swim. brr. refreshing! romeo and maomao joined us later.
after all the bathing and packing, we were ready for our long day! first it was underwater world. haha quite lame. walking round and round. took some weird photos. oh and the jellyfishes are so cute!!!
then it was cinemania, this simulator ride thingy. i think it was supposed to be scary. but its so totally not! hai was like making weird noises and sound effects. and as a result everybody couldn't help but shout and laugh through the whole ride. hahaz.
the lamest part of the day was when we started walking this jungle cum dragon trail. and omg! what a tiring trail it is.
in the evening, it was the pink dolphin show! haha i feel like such a tourist. oh well but maomao wanted to watch it.
our last destination was back to the beach for beach volley and soccer! haha. had lotsa fun though i played badly! oh and sorry hai for kicking u so hard! hahaz.

at the end of day. my nice tan was gone. now i have this weird t shirt tan. argh!

sleep all day.

2006-07-01T02:21:00.000+08:00

it's sleep-all-day today! wanted to go tanning. but was too tired. sleepy. so i slept practically the whole morning and afternoon and only woke up at 7pm. watched a little tv and slept all the way till it was time to watch desperate housewives. oink. i feel like a pig.

tomorrow morning i shall wake up early to tan and swim. i'm getting freaking fair and pale-looking. maybe i shall do my nails too. though it will get tarnished after one day of work. oh speaking of work. yesterday was a boring day. no customers and time passes so slowly. boredom was driving me insane, so asked aish if there was anything for me to do. so we did spring cleaning!

anyway, it's the beginning of a new month! my last month of holiday. -_-. gonna have to use this last opportunity to earn more money! working both at JustEd and MB. hmm. hope i can cope. luckily the hours doesn't really crash. yippy!

gosh, feeling sleepy. have to tan tml morning so shall go off to sleep now.
ciaoz!

1504. 17.6.06

2006-06-28T22:04:00.000+08:00

yep! photos from our outing! haha! it was quite fun! =)

tired.

2006-06-25T13:58:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY
work work work again. from 2- 11pm. wow! tiring. it was zy's friend's first day. kel. okay. a little dull-looking. like a wooden block. there was mel, jh's fren. hmm. so many new people! after work, supposed to eat 'dinner' with susu, romeo and mel. in the end romeo and mel ran off in the last minute. so susu decided to ask danny along. so, we had to travel all the way from cine to fetch danny from woodlands. and then we came all the way back to orchard. we dined at swenson's at crown prince hotel. by the time we're there, it was 12 plus already. anyway, i ate quite a lot. ordered FNC and shared a topless 5 with danny. wow. i feel like a small kid eating icecream. lime sorbet and butterscotch!! yummilicious! =) wanted to watch movie with susu and danny, but mom was nagging already. reached home at almost 4. whoopsy!

SATURDAY
what an irritating day!!!! well, it was zy's first day today. he worked 2-11pm. kel and i worked 6-11pm. at 6, i was already doing the washing. and gosh! there were so many dishes. piling and piling all over the place. stupid zy leave all those dishes for me. -_-.. washed till it was busy. zy and kel couldn't handle i guess. susu asked kel to take over. but he was too slow. so ask me go in again. then ry needed me out there again. anyway. kel wash until damn slow. i was so pissed while washing whatever he can't finish. but poor him always got suaned by ry. hmm. anyway. it was freaking irritating. after work wanted to watch movie. mom nagged again. grr.

SUNDAY
today is exercise day! hahaz all my exercising sessions are always with sm. woke up late. so had to meet her only at 2.30. today squash session was quite fun! sm improved and so the game starting to be more exciting! shall train harder too. tml! go jogging! yes! EXERCISE!!! after that went ps again. walk around for awhile and ate our noodle omelette thingy. oh, and susu at the cafe did some very stupid and lame thing. and i can't believe zy said that manz! no way, that's impossible! irritating, feels weird lying to zy. on the hand, i think the whole thing was freaking wacky too! hahaz. and i wonder what will danny think. hmm. i wonder. STUPID SUSU! lol.

15th June 06.

2006-06-22T23:20:00.000+08:00

hahaz. just some photos taken by jer's phone. i think everybody's very crazy that day. yep crazy ktv session.

oh almost got scolded for reaching home so 'early' in the morning again. =P whoopsy!

zzz.

2006-06-21T19:36:00.000+08:00

feel so sleepy these few days, too lazy to update. i need more sleep. well,

SATURDAY
met up with 1504 peeps on sat. it was quite fun. though not the whole class was there. hmm. people present: for gals there are xian-ny, angela, goon, tweety, ballie n me. shitty monkey and vid didn't make it. bad eggs! haz. as for guys, there were wh, wk, 2 blackies and clifferlini. ate at breeks, took lotsa photos(will post them some time soon), hung around for awhile, and then split up. 2 blackies went to watch wc(hey i just noticed! wc=world cup and wc=wenchian! hahaz. okay tt's lame). well, wh, wk, goon and me went to play cards while waiting for our silent hill movie which is like at 1am! so we practically had to play big2 and bridge alternately for 3 hours plus! gosh. i'm surprised my brain juices lasted for so long. oh silent hill was so freaking shitty!! well, the plot was quite interesting, some parts were just too disgusting. i was totally grossed out looking at those deformed bodies and rotting flesh and stuff. worst of all, the ending was so irritating. i'd rather it not show that last scene. it's almost as bad as the omen! but i enjoyed watching the movie beside goon. we keep giggling and making weird noises. wahahaz. reached home only at 4 plus and realised my whole family was still awake. in the end only slept at 6am. -__-

SUNDAY
it's father's day. only woke up at 2 plus. went out with my sis to get my father something. in the evening we went to eat dinner at east coast. boy! what a feast! ate so much yummy food. guess it's another day to forget about my diet! ha3. oh and there's this cool place at siglap called the cheesecake cafe. they have yummy cheesecakes and the ambience is so cool! when we reached home, my family started the mahjong session. -_- i'm too lazy for that.

MONDAY&TUESDAY
work and settling NTU stuff. thanks to hz for all the reminders. if not i'll be dead meat.

WEDNESDAY
oh no. have to work 11pm-6am again. guess this will be the last night shift i'm taking. my parents are really getting mad about me going home so freaking 'early' in the morning. maybe i should quit this job. 6-11 shift is very irritating since they always make me stand outside and give those flyers and force me to be a passive smoker. gosh, i couldn't believe there were so many smokers out there. smoking is bad for health! BAD with a capital B, capital A and capital D! as for the 11-6 shift, haz i think my beauty sleep is more precious. okay hurry up find another job then!

zz. well it's obvious why i am so sleepy these days. -_-zzz.

so tired!

2006-06-15T12:08:00.000+08:00

oh my god. 11pm to 6am is a really shitty shift. i mean there are barely any customers but you still have to stand there and stone. legs so freaking sore. i was so bored i had to ask jer and av if there's anything for me to do. gosh. and i had to wake up so early today. bish!

soccer watching was quite boring too. it was like there wasn't any goal till the very last minute. germany should do better than that! oh and there's that irritating susu, keep disturbing me about dan. but i have to admit, dan is quite a nice and cute guy. too bad he's only 18, or is he 17? hmm. anyway, i have to set off for TJ now. collect certificate and will probably join tweety in some whacko game again. wahahaz.

-hmm. i like this skin! it's so blue! blue is cool!-

my poor finger.

2006-06-09T14:27:00.000+08:00

stupid blogger maintenance shit. make me wait so long. ha3 was so bored so i did this! dollmakers. coolz right? my doll is so pretty. gosh i sound like some 3-yr-old kid playing barbie dolls. sheesh.
http://doll-makers/candybar-doll-maker.php

ha3. was working yesterday and i burnt my poor finger! now there's this layer of dead skin that pops out like a small bubble. irritating. oh well, at least i'm not deprived of my piano-playing. ha3 plus i was saved from washing dishes yesterday! hee. but poor Jer had to do it. sorry! shall help wash today then. hmm. but work yesterday was quite fun. Av, L and Jer were like trying to coax me to join their club. ha3 yea, it's fun joking around with them. they are a nice bunch of bananas.

then it started getting busy. then i had to work work work. well today i have to work work work again. plus today is a sad day. zy just vroomed off to KL this morning. this means i'm gonna have no entertainment for 3 days! damn. he won't be back till sunday's over. grr. irritating pig!

sunday is coming and i have no plans yet. bish!
maybe i should spend my time at home with my family.

hey! hey! hey!

2006-05-31T14:21:00.000+08:00

ying!! come back manz!!!

come back come back come back!!!

my new job.

2006-05-31T13:44:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my first day at maestro bistro, and gosh wasn't it tiring. it had been six months since i last did waitressing (plus i've always had a chair working in JustEd), i've almost forgotten the sore and pain that comes after more than 6 hours of continuous standing and walking. but the crew are funny and friendly! especially azlan and romeo(sorry not sure if i've spelt them correctly). the people are helpful to. though the managers were a little strict and serious. let me see if i can remember all their names. there are hardiman and ryan, azlan romeo and al, harmin izaam and raza-something. oh damn. shall check the schedule book to study their names again. lol.

oh the big bosses were there too. azlan said that they were always around. almost everyday. damn! pressurize me. -_-

and we only knocked off at 230. i wonder if they count the hours till i leave the place. if not i feel so freaking cheated. -_- legs so sore, too tired to even bathe when i get home. have to work today too. hope i can bear with it. after tonight, i will have thur and fri off alr. haha. keep it up carol!

it is decided.

2006-05-29T10:04:00.000+08:00

ha! at last i've accepted. and i have accepted NTU accountancy in Nanyang Business School. though it's considered quite boring as compared to drawing and designing. but i feel happy to see that my good friends are also in NTU accountancy! there are loads like hz, xj, maybe sy and heard there are even more from DHS too. hmm. can't wait for all the fun to start!

last sat met up with DHSCOPipas. hmm. and gosh it's practically been decades since i last saw xj manz. and everybody's going to NTU. then xj and hz started trying to guess who filet-o-fish is. wahahaz. so funny. think it's impossible for them to guess it right.

well, today is officially my last day at JustEd. been a little frustrated these days at work. recently, there are loads of unreasonable parents. plus, what with all the clearing up after messes, and unavailability of the computer, it's really getting very boring. i count myself lucky that i have my lovely bones with me at work.

now that i mentioned it! the LOVELY BONES by Anne Sebold. it's such a LOVELY book. intriguing and sweet story. i think it's much better at keeping the reader than Time Traveller's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger, though they both have very interesting plots.

though it's a little old, the LOVELY BONES is still a must-read!
=) carol rox

1504. those days.

2006-05-26T11:39:00.000+08:00

ha3. lousy attempt in decorating the photos. =P

the biggest joke on earth

2006-05-18T18:02:00.000+08:00

ha3 i know that i'm damn mean. but still, i cannot stop laughing. oh my gosh. sm got chicken pox! oh dear, what a poor thing. she can't go thailand anymore. bleah. okay i'm feeling guilty for laughing at her already.

sigh, poor me at work. so boring here. jan had buzzed of to ntu for her russian lessons. the air here is stiff and still. luckily i can still listen to my music and read my phantom! ha3. indeed, serangoon is JustEd's heaven.

tt hougang woman is coming over soon i think. hmm, i'm not exactly in the appropriate attire. ha3. hope she doesn't nag.

=P

it's a meet up.

2006-05-17T18:53:00.000+08:00

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yesterday it was a meet-up with the 1504 gals! long time no see fuichin and goon! too bad ballie is at indonesia. ha3.

was a long and busy day. woke up as early as 8am to go jogging. felt real tired. then i was off to the esplanade library. was busy browsing, zapping and borrowing books. and then it's a rush to job-seeking! first went to suntec for andersen denmark ice cream. filled some form and told me that they'll call. then it was waffle at gelare! yum yum macadamia nut waffle is so yummy! ha3. made a trip to fish n co. but of my god! the pay and evalution period thingy is so fucked up. -_-. shall call them back and reject them soon. ha3. oh, asked ben & jerry's too. shall wait for their reply.

then i rushed off to united square for the bakerzin interview. filled some long-winded form too and the interview was so weird. keep speaking so softly. mumbling his way as though he's in his own world. senile.

ha3. then walked around and had to find tt tweety bird at orchard alr. tweety bird had a haircut that made her look even more like herself. perfect! ha3 fuichinz joined us too! as we were at cine we asked Maestro Bistro if they were hiring too? ha3. got interviewed and still waiting for news.

then we rushed over to meet monkey and goon at orchard! ended up going to marina square to eat carl's junior. stupid goon. bish!
after dinner we decided to take some photos and goon introduced a 'romantic' place at millenia walk. wow it's quite cool! like waterfalls. enjoyed reminiscing about TJC days and even DHS days in the windy nite.

ha3 can't wait to go uni and make more friends! =)

happy mothers' day!

2006-05-15T12:11:00.001+08:00

yesterday, i came home after work for dinner and pizzas' in the house! yummy! we had a sumptious feast. with pizza and yummy black pepper chicken to munch on. oh gosh. my stomach felt so bloated after that. plus, popo even made sweet soup. what a yummilicious mothers' day! ha3.

it's work today again. but no sweat. offdays are right in front of me again! yay! shall read my phantom of manhattan while work today. oh. and job-seek!!

i noe i shouldn't say this. but my sis is a PITA!

2006-05-13T22:15:00.000+08:00

hmm. what can i say? well, had always wanted to rant about this. now its all going out!

grr. how lame can she get? and when i say lame. i mean it. she doesn't even have any hands (or rather usable hands) to clean up after herself. one look at THE MESS, and you will know what i'm talking about. and come on! it's not even HER room. it's OUR room! hello!! there are other people living down here! what's worse is that it's beginning to smell weird. had to use my adidas perfume to neutralise that! rather sleep out in the couch. -__-

plus. she is starting to act really weird recently. like, she comes home and stays on her bed for hours. and i wonder what she's doing. it's like SO boring! and she's not even reading something. then she has been going so overboard-ly towards the folks. i mean, hello!! even i don't have that freedom when i was your age you know?? come on! you want to have freedom! earn it! sort and pack your life up a bit. it's like taking without giving (in other words, a good-for-nothing).

i know i shouldn't write all these. but i don't mind even if she does see this (that's why i dun write it in my other blog). given up talking to her already. hope she cracks out of everything soon.
bzz bzz.

worries go away.

carol's back!

It's Time-To-Be-Thankful Day.

2006-05-10T00:39:00.000+08:00

today i woke up damn early. 11.00am. omg! felt so freaking hot. irritating sister switched off my precious air-con. again. grr!

anyway i got off the bed and watched my dvds! ah wang xing zhuan (hmm.. i wonder if the pinyin is correct). practically watched non-stop till i had to part with my tv at 2.30. ha3 then i zoomed off to meet ym n sm at bedok for badminton!

as always, i was the earliest! even though i was already late. -_- went into the sports hall and saw some TJCians (who i totally don't even recognise). and yep we started our badminton-ing! erm. to tell the truth, it's more like whack-and-pick-up-shuttlecock-ing. and it was quite tiring, since i was playing vs 2. but then we started playing this lame game, again invented by me. had to whack and name an idiom (cheng yu). lol. so lame can?
-_-

but it was damn fun. goon joined us and we kept switching to movies, celebrities, names and whatever there is. the most hilarious part was making up stories. -_- wat kinda weird stories we can think of manz. esp that weird tweety bird aka sm. well, can't blame. tweety birds are weird. =P

then it was dinner at 85 and rotting at singpost coffeebean. reminds me of last yr studying days. and speaking of studying and 'a' levels. i guess i should take some people. ha3. it's time-to-be-thankful day!

i'd like to thank:

Rajesh - he's just such a nice civics tutor. so funny, whacky, drama-ma-ma-y, lazy and slack. just what 1504 needed! ha3 yea more like what i needed. -_- but anyway he makes gp more interesting! and i made great improvement during my a levels! =D plus, not everyone is as lucky to have a handsome guy as their ct!

Mrs Pang - except for her lectures, she's a great math teacher. at least she knows her stuff. well but as a counsellor? erm i still don't think so.

Mr Hamtaro - yr1 physics tutor. just love him and his hamtaro! wahahahaz.

Mr Smiley-face - he is indeed a dedicated physics tutor. regardless of turn up during remedials he still appears (must be cause he had me as such a great remedial student).

Mr Shinchan - Gosh. i bet he hates me. with all that bad remarks he wrote in my report! he was totally exaggerating! bish! oh well, with all my sleeping in his tutorials practically everytime, everyday (oh btw chem labs make great tutorial-sleeping venues. comfortable and well-hidden. lol). not doing his homework. flunking his tests. maybe i shouldn't blame him. ;P

Mr Starwars - he's a nice teacher. except that i totally don't understand his jokes. seriously! not even a single one.

Lam-er - overall she is quite a sweetie. well except for her irritating spine-chilling grins, big goldfish eyes that always seem to bore right through you till it pops right out of their sockets, glass-breaking high pitched squeaks and exaggerated 'mannerisms'(erm u go do the math). wow. imagine all that coming from a creature that stands only 1.4m (ha3 i rounded down).

Mrs Lim - for making me drop my biology and sparing me from the ultimate Lam-er.

1504 - for being such a unique class to be in especially those that i had copied all my tutorials from. ha3

my folks and zeh - for their constant nagging.

singpost coffeebean - for providing me my daily dosage of caffeine.

TJC - for being such a great school! especially TJC library, with so many useful bulletins, and not forgetting that it's another good harbour to lala land.

and any others who helped one way or another. yep!

oh my gosh! such a long entry. oh well, i'm off for my beauty sleep. zzz.